Lost in a discordant flow

Where have you been

Where have you gone

The tossing and turning

No time to dwell upon

Facts withered away 

Replaced with truthiness

The cult of personality

Has added to this mess

Fright night becomes day

Horrors abhor the peace

The fury of a surge

Comes deathly like a beast

Which way to go

Here, there, I don't know

Hunkered in the bunker

Focused on nowhere to go

Meanwhile the pain builds

Yells and shouts of ignorance

Risen like an uneven tide

The decay of common sense

Open up they say

Open up regardless

The danger zone condones

Life regarded less

Even worse yet now

Under the cover of livelihoods

Expertise is disavowed

Experience viewed a falsehood

Individuality reigns supreme

At the expense of community

Self interests divides the house

Perilous is the collaborative unity

Where have you been

Where should you go

Turning and tossing

Lost in a discordant flow.

Quickly how dreams change

Turbulent waters mar the seashore
The skies riddled with clouds of grey
A passageway open no more
Anchored we stay stuck to the bay

The discord is palpable in the air
Winds bellow a salty sorrowful taste
Troublesome is the sea of despair
Rains pounding in so much haste

Holding on for the last possible gasp
Disappointment litters the landscape
True north seems far out of grasp
A realization this time there is no escape

Then suddenly the skies turn bright blue
A light breeze soothes the well-worn face
The sun shines radiantly through
Pillows offer much comfort and grace.

Just Fine

The embers fade slowly
Nightfall brings an uneasy calm
Curtains veil the reality
Of the past day's fire alarm

It weighs in the mind heavy
An itch that seems to persist
Discouraging the drive within
Questions thy path to dismiss

Is it fallacy to continue further
Or simply a pause in the display
Daylight disrupts the dew-fall
Time for undone gumption to play

Gather my thoughts and inaction
Courage in the midst of the line
They may fire away effortlessly
I'll face it with a smile just fine.

These Phantoms Besiege Me

These phantoms besiege me

Chasing my every move and position

Under constant continual surveillance

Like closed circuit television

I try to flee

But even before I inch lurching forward

The walls encompass me into darkness

Shackled stuck in a grind

In a flow oh so very burdensome

With all my might I do try

Energy emphasized for the jail break

Alas these bars don't budge at all

I feel trapped

Ever more so and then some

Is this a figment of my imagination

Or is this situation obtrusively real

It's too hazy with the visibility so low

The ghosts of yesteryear

Haunt my worrisome encumbered mind

This mirror needs to be shattered

I must transform

Oh I think I hear their chatter

The footsteps quicken their pace

Surreal or illusion it doesn't matter

 This dark place will not be where I reside

Here in the desert of ill-reputed despair.

The Tough Life I Seek

Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where fortune seems bleak
And the sorrow is deeper in me

Why should I do this?
Engage in the terrible straits
The narrow road of crisis
Determined by the Fates

Dredging through the mud
Emboldens my resolve
And boils my cry for blood
Barriers beware of ensuing dissolve

In this dark, harrowing time
My true self discovery occurs
Ripped away from what is sublime
This concoction begins to slowly stir

Fermented in the shaded shadows
A phoenix starts to emerge
The fiery flow beckons and bellows
My power soon converges

What is this you see?
It is the reversal of direction
Lifted up from changing seas
Cleansed of the failure distortion

You see the tough life I seek
Is only but for an mild instant
The lesson learned in meek
Forever rises in changes fervent

The new self that rises
Points a new direction of North
The strength of character surprises
Forward and further comes forth

The time away in somber silence
Stews the mind courageously anew
It grows in strict, incorrigible confidence
Becoming a light, airy, and vibrant hue

The change is nearly complete
My story makes a transition
A new challenge is here to meet
I seek to amplify with distinction

Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where misfortune is bleak
And the joy is deeper in me.

What counts is the positive sum

You can't ever go back to before

Time changes too rapidly

Before you know, it soon approaches

Tomorrow is here now quickly

You're glad the the worse is gone

But at the same time previously

Gone also was the sense of bliss

Oh how time flies so mischievously

Yearning for joy in the ever present
Disparaging pain somehow seeps through
Present pleasure vanishes abruptly
Replaced with despair tinged in a dark hue

Indeed its a roller coaster journey

What dreams may not come

Journey forward nevertheless

What counts is the positive sum.

His eyes gaze out to the crowd.

Emotions ravage the landscape

Who could have known of this

It was predicted ages ago

Planned and rethought sincerely

Over and over again

The moment breaks loose

Chaos and its devious minions

Turn loose the shift in scenery

Effortlessly and with a thrust

The fire consumes the environs

In joyful cautious tones

Through the fire and definite fury

Silence seeps in through the cracks

The dark turns into bight lights

All pain clears the anxious room

The waiting period simply vanishes

Instantly back into its darkened corners

Like cracking a well-worn whip

A thunderous cry reverberates

Clapping vigor through the clouds

I could not believe mine own eyes

All glory be on High

Envisioned in numerous dreams

My world changes forever

Comfort soothes the heart and soul

Peace envelopes the crowded room

My calm demeanor returns

This day has been a courageous trial

Stormy seas now cease and desist

His eyes gaze out to the crowd.

Tired of the bull-crap...

Tired of the bull-crap
Tired of the pain
Tired of the agony
It makes me insane

Frustrated at the stupidity
Frustrated at the anger
Frustrated at the idiot
Heading to danger

What am I to do
What am I to see
What am I to wonder
Others want to disagree

In circles I loop
In circles I group
In circles of dispute
I feel like a dupe

Ready to fight
Ready to gripe
Ready to give up
Not into the hype

Drowning in angst
Drowning in silence
Drowning in despair
Feeling a bit of malevolence

It is a travesty
It is a flabbergast
It is a stupefy
Just like an ass

Tired of the bull-crap
Tired of the pain
Tired of the agony
I just want to be sane.

Today is so yesterday...

Today is so yesterday
Tomorrow is fast approaching
No time to contemplate
The speed is scorching

Opening mine eyes
Ready to doze off
The cliff of fiscal responsibility
Makes one ready to jump off

Celebrations a-plenty
The losses are discouraging
The joys and the sorrows
Keep me a-whirling

The 31st is here
But just for a fleeting moment
The countdown begins
The 1st is speedily fervent

As the curtains close
And a door opens anew
Hope and anxiety arrive
I bid the past pains adieu

Time to make things happen
Plans are already set in motion
No recourse from the old
Full steam ahead is the notion

All that I ask
In this new year
Is to go a bit slower
Set in a steadier gear

Though somehow deep
Beneath my physical self
The soul knows better
What is to become of oneself

Today is so yesterday
Tomorrow is fast approaching
No time to contemplate
The speed is scorching.

The Spark That Burns

The spark that burns

Eats me alive

I am consumed

To fight and strive

The time is now

Carpe diem

Seize the moment

Thoughts on a whim

The struggles within

In a barren wasteland

Are but nothing

Against my stand

The anger bursts

A ferocious growl

I am the predator

On the prowl

Inactivity

Can be no more

Rising up

Breaking  through the door

The opportunity is here

Locked and targeted

Aiming high

The mind accelerated

The spark that burns

Empowers me whole

I shoot for the stars

My lofty goal.

I know that I haven't been blogging, but the passion that burns now has returned and I hope to carry this flame as far as it can go. I hope you will join me and thank you for your support.

Trapped in a Flow

Trapped in a flow
Nowhere to go

What shall I do
Feel like fool

Against the current
A theme recurrent

My heart fervent
The mind dissonant

Stewing in my head
Confusion I tread

Need for a spark
For decisions landmark

Forced in a burrow
Creativity in furrow

Searching for the light
Inspiration's delight

Crying out a plea
Yearning to flee

Chastised to be quiet
The soul is a riot

Trapped in a flow
Somewhere I need to go.

Too Much Fast

The motor starts
Kaboom
Pedal to the metal
The engine vroom

From silent slumber
Ring Ding Ding
Jump start the day
The door opens fling

The light of morning
Gathers steam
Slow at first
It now brightly beams

Tick tock
The clock stalks
The dial ever so slightly
Then faster it balks

Speeds goes
Faster and faster
On a good pace
Novice to master

Exponents explode
Now its too quick
I'm losing the hold
The grip is slick

The engine goes
Revolutions in red
Brakes become listless
This I'm going to dread

Out of my control
Hanging loose
In stormy winds
Not what I choose

Nevertheless
The mess devours
Littered in frustration
The pain towers

No where good
This lack of constraint
Ready myself
About to faint

Boom
Splash
Bang
Crash

Timber
Fall from grace
Devastation
All over the place

Too much fast
The engine busts
The wall it smashes
Instantaneously combusts

Consequences
Time to take the flak
The heat it scours
Heavy on my back.

One day...

...we will conquer our fears, downfalls and struggles. Until then, we shall strive 110% to reach that goal. Though the night brings pain and wickedness, the sun shall undoubtedly rise and we shall rise with it.

My Fate

As the door creaks open
A monstrous figure appears
Dripping tears and sweat
Ferociously emitting fears

He growls fiercely loud
Terrifying the soul
Heat emanates from him
Blanketing the cold

The eyes seek you out
Mystifying in terror
He sees through the dark
Into the most inner

A blaze is lit
Engulfed is the room
I have no way out
Impending doom

I can see the hunger
The agony and pain within
Locked up in dormancy
Too long has it surely been

Rage fuels him
It shrouds the damp air
Encircled in flames
Affixed with a devious stare

A sudden movement
Is all it takes
One swift strike
And death seemingly makes

The ground quickly quivers
He has made his move
The thunderous quake
Like a hammered screw

I fall in grace
He devours the mold
An explosive transformation
Bends into the fold

Awakened from slumber
From the ashes pitiful
Flight takes its strong form
A phoenix in full

Morphed from the dreary
I have become him
In hunger and piercing pain
Filled to the bitter brim

I have returned
From the land of nether
Darting toward the goal
Of the dreams of better

Long it has been lost
Now I gather in powerful force
The passion and motivation
My flight takes it course

I shatter through the door
For opportunities embrace
Trailblazing through stubborn rock
Leaving a clear trace

My soul is lit with fire
The fervor resonates
I'm focused on my desires
I'll make my fate.

More Spark

Waiting
Now and later
It seems distant
More forever

Where am I
Listless
Fearing the fall
More restless

Sitting alone
Fired up to go
Held in place
More no

Anger beseeches
Riles my insides
Pain in the gut
More aside

The direct path
Closed indefinitely
Under construction
More debris

Stuck in a rut
Facing nowhere
Helpless
More tear

Quietly
Comes the dark
Another chance
More spark.

I know I have not posted anything for quite awhile. There have been many changing events in my life for the past few months. I shall soon share through my verses soon enough. The inspiration for this one was the blank, unimaginative mind I had while I was busy with the reality of life. The dust settles and now I return to the land of art and poetry. I hope to see you soon.

Never Give Up

Never give up
No let down
When times seem bleak
And the tide overbearing
Face it full steam

Get off the ground
Refocus the senses
Fixate the eyes
Listen to the beat
Follow the heart

The pain throttles
But soon subsides
The vitality grows
Rage burns furious
A forward march

Resistance to loss
No more agony
I see the goal
Never give up
Never let down
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In dedication to perseverance in attaining personal goals recently realized. A calculated risk taken and rewarded.

The Flu Trap

It starts with a small cough
Innocuously innocent
A small pitiful itch
Nothing but a small dent

The nose begins to drip
Meaninglessly inattentive
A drip and a drop
Spattering without a motive

A quick sneeze
Faint formulation
Tainting just a little
Minor disposition

Bam!!!!

All hell breaks loose
A cold snap
Aches and pains
The flu trap!

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Winter is a nearing
Fall is here
The season of flu
Comes to appear.

Oh Stagnant Sun!

Blazing in the east
It rises to feast

The heat it brings
The sweat clings

A forceful beat
Sticks to your seat

Dry as a bone
Heavy as stone

Water, thirst
Ready to burst

Rays of daggers
Makes me stagger

No leniency
Nor clemency

A merciless tone
It doth condone

The grandeur
No flash of demure

Outright insanity
Proclaims its vanity

It is so hot
Kills my thought

You are not fun
Oh stagnant sun!
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It supposed to be the beginning of the fall season. Though I know I live in California, I thought it would begin to get a bit milder. I guess the sun has other plans.

Lost in Idiosyncrasy

The murky waters
A litany of pain
Clouds the situation
Confuses my aim

What am I to do
Forced into stupidity
Where have I been
Lost in idiosyncrasy

The fog rolls in
My path it covers
Trivial matters
Darken true colors

I have lost my way
A mind unclear
The wrath devours
I shutter in fear

On a moonless night
Even stars decline
The soul shrieks
No I am not fine

Sorrows litter the path
A train wreak indeed
Faced with hypocrisy
My heart bleeds

A reversal of fortune
Code red alert
The alarm rings true
Trouble I must avert

My heart knows thine
The actions were unkind
Stubborn I was for sure
Loosening the favored bind

I must initiate
Strengthen the hull
Seek purposeful action
Rid of this null

I come to reclaim
A passionate love
One that I once had
That peaceful dove

Then in one fell swoop
Crashing thunder
The ship runs aground
I am thrown under

Is it too late
Not knowing the way
The fate I face
Is here today

Waves crash in
Burying me further
Weight of my sins
Multiplies the blunder

In my pride
I sprung a leak
The truth was blindsided
And I became weak

Anger slights my path
In broken spirits lost
What am I to do
Count the cost?
_____________________

Sometimes, all we need is time alone to seek the truth. The pain that lives within shows itself in the light. No where to hide and no where to run. It speaks loud and clear. A change of course leaving despair and inaction behind. I seek to travel to new heights of passion and truth. My mind knows the truth and my heart leads the way.

Lack of Thrust

A foggy haze
Blankets the sky
Motionlessly calm
Struggling to fly

The muggy heat
Reeks of listlessness
Lost for words
Drowsy eagerness

Tirelessly faint
Blurred attention
Heavy weights
Slows the ascension

Exhaustion
Bites the dust
Soulless wandering
Lack of thrust