The Tough Life I Seek

Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where fortune seems bleak
And the sorrow is deeper in me

Why should I do this?
Engage in the terrible straits
The narrow road of crisis
Determined by the Fates

Dredging through the mud
Emboldens my resolve
And boils my cry for blood
Barriers beware of ensuing dissolve

In this dark, harrowing time
My true self discovery occurs
Ripped away from what is sublime
This concoction begins to slowly stir

Fermented in the shaded shadows
A phoenix starts to emerge
The fiery flow beckons and bellows
My power soon converges

What is this you see?
It is the reversal of direction
Lifted up from changing seas
Cleansed of the failure distortion

You see the tough life I seek
Is only but for an mild instant
The lesson learned in meek
Forever rises in changes fervent

The new self that rises
Points a new direction of North
The strength of character surprises
Forward and further comes forth

The time away in somber silence
Stews the mind courageously anew
It grows in strict, incorrigible confidence
Becoming a light, airy, and vibrant hue

The change is nearly complete
My story makes a transition
A new challenge is here to meet
I seek to amplify with distinction

Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where misfortune is bleak
And the joy is deeper in me.

Wack Attack

It is all out of wack
I'm having an attack

What should I do
I feel like such a fool

Disorganized
And not prioritized

This is an irritation
A dispiriting indication

A look of ineffectual force
With time it gets worse

Weakness in all limbs
Inaction at whims

Sluggish in motion
Quirky commotion

Anxiety confides within
Can't even grin

Face the music
In need of an analgesic

The pain unbearable
The feeling of terrible

Slumped in my bed
Like I'm ill-fed

Popped some pills
To cure the ills

What is the ailment
That breaks the firmament?

Mangled migraines
Oh what pains

Like a dagger
Makes me stagger

Agitating, pulsating
Back and forth debating

Sharply fierce
A spear to pierce

Then slowly but surely
Numbing eerily

Excedrin does its job
Breaking the weave and bob

A light at the end
On a path to mend

Like heaven sent
No more hell-bent

It was all out of wack
Such a stirring attack.

Let the Healing Begin

Let the healing begin
The pain that torched
Suffering through injury
Decisions wrongly coerced

The mirror did shatter
In numerous pieces indeed
Crying seemingly infinite
The sorrows of the ill deed

But change is in the air
A new calm fair breeze
Replaces the foul torrent
Of callous seeds to seize

A new light of day
Arises from the east
Signals a new tune
No less or least

Hold your head up
Confident exuberance
Peering not backward
Seek to self enhance

The bell tolls loudly
Rings in my ear
No time for mourning
Party time to cheer

I am renewed
A bright outlook ensues
Let the healing begin
From dark to lighter hues.