When I Was Young...

When I was young

I wanted to be in the city

Crowded places

Lots of faces

Dreamt of skyscrapers

And of busy streets

Cramped rooms

Days go vroom

It appeared to be full of life

It appeared to be dynamic

Loud music sounds

Opportunities abound

But as I grow older

City lights lost their charm

Life is stressed

Time compressed

I dream of the big sky

And plenty of country

Clear air

Less crowed affair

I want a starry night

Dynamic sounds of wildlife

Barren land

Opportunities grand.

Quickly how dreams change

Turbulent waters mar the seashore
The skies riddled with clouds of grey
A passageway open no more
Anchored we stay stuck to the bay

The discord is palpable in the air
Winds bellow a salty sorrowful taste
Troublesome is the sea of despair
Rains pounding in so much haste

Holding on for the last possible gasp
Disappointment litters the landscape
True north seems far out of grasp
A realization this time there is no escape

Then suddenly the skies turn bright blue
A light breeze soothes the well-worn face
The sun shines radiantly through
Pillows offer much comfort and grace.

Night is calling to me

Night is calling to me

Whispers blow in the wind

Weak and weary is my body

Yet the sound is relentless, piercing

It pursues the innermost thoughts

And pervades my inner sanctum

What words are these?

A message knifes through the fog

Like a surgical strike 

Pinpoint to the nth degree

Quiet the dark may be

But the mind is set ablaze 

Unclear am I to its meaning

Fearful of where it might lead

The unknown strikes a dissonance

Tangled and tossed in darkness

Confused at the unease

Unprepared for the Revelation

My physicality wants it to turn off

The mind can't help but listen

And the soul is its catalyst

Forces beyond my comprehension

Controlling the mode of thought

Persuading me closer to the call

Just when I finally thought

I got the harmony synthesized

The melody skips a disdainful beat 

Dark night switches the tune

The sun shutters the shadows

And I am awake to a different rhythm.

Avenues and Alleyways

Avenues and alleyways

Decisions clutter the map

A boulevard of broken dreams

In constant, continual loops and laps

The race for the cure

Has no real ending in sight

Tortured souls grimace sorrowfully

Dreaming of a peaceful light

The weight bears down immense

Like a lead foot on a straightaway

You focus desperately, longingly

For the off-ramp to run away

This one-way road trip

Haunts like a desolate island

Never to be discovered nor found

Perpetually a pain to be mired in

Avenues and alleyways

They all lead to one distinct conclusion

Need to escape from restless reality

Into a realm of whimsical illusion.

These Phantoms Besiege Me

These phantoms besiege me

Chasing my every move and position

Under constant continual surveillance

Like closed circuit television

I try to flee

But even before I inch lurching forward

The walls encompass me into darkness

Shackled stuck in a grind

In a flow oh so very burdensome

With all my might I do try

Energy emphasized for the jail break

Alas these bars don't budge at all

I feel trapped

Ever more so and then some

Is this a figment of my imagination

Or is this situation obtrusively real

It's too hazy with the visibility so low

The ghosts of yesteryear

Haunt my worrisome encumbered mind

This mirror needs to be shattered

I must transform

Oh I think I hear their chatter

The footsteps quicken their pace

Surreal or illusion it doesn't matter

 This dark place will not be where I reside

Here in the desert of ill-reputed despair.

His eyes gaze out to the crowd.

Emotions ravage the landscape

Who could have known of this

It was predicted ages ago

Planned and rethought sincerely

Over and over again

The moment breaks loose

Chaos and its devious minions

Turn loose the shift in scenery

Effortlessly and with a thrust

The fire consumes the environs

In joyful cautious tones

Through the fire and definite fury

Silence seeps in through the cracks

The dark turns into bight lights

All pain clears the anxious room

The waiting period simply vanishes

Instantly back into its darkened corners

Like cracking a well-worn whip

A thunderous cry reverberates

Clapping vigor through the clouds

I could not believe mine own eyes

All glory be on High

Envisioned in numerous dreams

My world changes forever

Comfort soothes the heart and soul

Peace envelopes the crowded room

My calm demeanor returns

This day has been a courageous trial

Stormy seas now cease and desist

His eyes gaze out to the crowd.

The Dreams We Dream

The dreams we dream

Sometimes spark a drive

Such as in a light column beam

Egging us on to take a dive

Liftoff the countdown ends

We arrive at a new doorstep

A tree branch limb extends

Hope spurs from what we've kept

Exploring the new waterway

All caution to the waves

The wind calls us to play

To spelunking in the caves

The cost of opportunity

Is cast away by the wayside

All items are full of possibility

No rules need to abide

Delving deeper into the pools

A phantasmagorical world emerges

Monsters, angels, and even fools

An ethereal picture converges

A far reaching sound pings

Closer to the tower I climb

The audible sound now sings

An awe heavenly sublime

A message is scrawled

Upon a weather-worn scroll

The words etched and crawled

Beckoning my innermost soul

At this most basic elemental altar

Set aside in the darkest hour

A message is meant to halt the falter

Not to be stagnant and cower

It is time indeed

A thunderous clap bellows

The lighting strikes a feed

Zapping the lackluster fellow

Reinvigorated away from the darkness

Forthright in the beauty of this design

Breaking through incorrigible starkness

Drinking of the celebratory wine

The dreams we dream

Sets a positive emotion

The righteous path that we deem

Congruous for zealous devotion.

Plus One

Plus One

With mathematical certainty

That is the logic between

The proof of You and Me

You have delighted my life

Through a neurochemical concoction

Of "madly truly deeply"

The passionate equation

Adding up the years

The good and the bad

A definite witch's brew

None other could be had

In my wildest dreams

Where logic holds no sway

Our summer ties held true

Regardless of the winter gray

The spring colors come full bloom

In this fantasmagorical world

No division could be computed

Nor can it be unfurled

But in an absolute fact

The summation of us

Now leads in a new direction

Of an additional plus

The setting may change

But our architechture is sound

I will always be yours

Firm on fertile ground

Where the water springs

And the love always flows

I'm blessed by your grace

Set sail I will never go

As long as you allow me 

To be your plus one

Evermore you are

My plus one.

-Dedicated to my wife on Valentine's Day, 2013

Hocus Pocus

The night before

Starts with a flicker

A bit of excitement

Yearning for quicker

Out in the horizon

The light changes

Dusk becomes dawn

Emotions in all ranges

This is the day

Make or break

Anxiety heightens

To realize my stake

A question pops

Expands in the mind

Should I have

Oh never mind

Full steam ahead

I jump wholly in

Whatever it is

Bear it within

The sun rises

Here already too late

Time to go

Now is the fate

What is perceived

Dreams of grandeur

Nightmarish horrors

The opening door

Time to see

Critical Focus

I am awakened

Hocus pocus!

These are my thoughts are of the future, of what is around the corner, and how I visualize a fateful day. I'm not sure what this fateful day is about, but it popped into my head just right now. It is a view into the internal mechanism of my mind and its actions, the decision-making process. Does your mind work the same way?  

Fire Away

Others may try to impose on what should be normal for you, but the reality is only you and your creator know what is best for you. Follow your heart and have tough skin. Let your detractors fire away and watch their criticisms deflect off you. In the end you will be satisfied because you led the life that you envisioned for yourself.

This also reminded me of an earlier post of mine called Forge Forward. Check it out!

My Fate

As the door creaks open
A monstrous figure appears
Dripping tears and sweat
Ferociously emitting fears

He growls fiercely loud
Terrifying the soul
Heat emanates from him
Blanketing the cold

The eyes seek you out
Mystifying in terror
He sees through the dark
Into the most inner

A blaze is lit
Engulfed is the room
I have no way out
Impending doom

I can see the hunger
The agony and pain within
Locked up in dormancy
Too long has it surely been

Rage fuels him
It shrouds the damp air
Encircled in flames
Affixed with a devious stare

A sudden movement
Is all it takes
One swift strike
And death seemingly makes

The ground quickly quivers
He has made his move
The thunderous quake
Like a hammered screw

I fall in grace
He devours the mold
An explosive transformation
Bends into the fold

Awakened from slumber
From the ashes pitiful
Flight takes its strong form
A phoenix in full

Morphed from the dreary
I have become him
In hunger and piercing pain
Filled to the bitter brim

I have returned
From the land of nether
Darting toward the goal
Of the dreams of better

Long it has been lost
Now I gather in powerful force
The passion and motivation
My flight takes it course

I shatter through the door
For opportunities embrace
Trailblazing through stubborn rock
Leaving a clear trace

My soul is lit with fire
The fervor resonates
I'm focused on my desires
I'll make my fate.

More Spark

Waiting
Now and later
It seems distant
More forever

Where am I
Listless
Fearing the fall
More restless

Sitting alone
Fired up to go
Held in place
More no

Anger beseeches
Riles my insides
Pain in the gut
More aside

The direct path
Closed indefinitely
Under construction
More debris

Stuck in a rut
Facing nowhere
Helpless
More tear

Quietly
Comes the dark
Another chance
More spark.

I know I have not posted anything for quite awhile. There have been many changing events in my life for the past few months. I shall soon share through my verses soon enough. The inspiration for this one was the blank, unimaginative mind I had while I was busy with the reality of life. The dust settles and now I return to the land of art and poetry. I hope to see you soon.

Lost in Idiosyncrasy

The murky waters
A litany of pain
Clouds the situation
Confuses my aim

What am I to do
Forced into stupidity
Where have I been
Lost in idiosyncrasy

The fog rolls in
My path it covers
Trivial matters
Darken true colors

I have lost my way
A mind unclear
The wrath devours
I shutter in fear

On a moonless night
Even stars decline
The soul shrieks
No I am not fine

Sorrows litter the path
A train wreak indeed
Faced with hypocrisy
My heart bleeds

A reversal of fortune
Code red alert
The alarm rings true
Trouble I must avert

My heart knows thine
The actions were unkind
Stubborn I was for sure
Loosening the favored bind

I must initiate
Strengthen the hull
Seek purposeful action
Rid of this null

I come to reclaim
A passionate love
One that I once had
That peaceful dove

Then in one fell swoop
Crashing thunder
The ship runs aground
I am thrown under

Is it too late
Not knowing the way
The fate I face
Is here today

Waves crash in
Burying me further
Weight of my sins
Multiplies the blunder

In my pride
I sprung a leak
The truth was blindsided
And I became weak

Anger slights my path
In broken spirits lost
What am I to do
Count the cost?
_____________________

Sometimes, all we need is time alone to seek the truth. The pain that lives within shows itself in the light. No where to hide and no where to run. It speaks loud and clear. A change of course leaving despair and inaction behind. I seek to travel to new heights of passion and truth. My mind knows the truth and my heart leads the way.

Freedom

A wrecking ball
Blows past me
Toward the wall
Set to be free

Standards of the past
Flash before the eyes
Shattered at last
No limit the skies

Forward the march
Uncontrollable yearning
No backward arch
Infernal burning

Hunger strikes a pose
Negligence dissipates
These foes I depose
A new way anticipates

Painful yesteryear
Bellows its last breath
I see no fear
It has been put to death.

Inspired

Spewing beneath
In molten agony
Is the belief
And lack of apathy

What he seeks
The ultimate reward
Fiery flames
Reach the accord

In his dreams
Many times over
Anger speaks
No run for cover

Faithfully built
Aptly skilled
Stroke of genius
Heartily willed

The time has come
Shining bright lights
Zeal for greatness
Set hard on the sights

The moment calls
Onward it beckons
Unleash the fight
A ferocious weapon

With one fell shot
Seething in disgust
The weak fall and fail
In that powerful thrust

That competitive spirit
The passionately desired
Shall never cease
I am inspired.

Written as an inspiration of "Heart of a Champion"

I Believe

I believe
I can do this
Go forward
And achieve
My goals
Aspirations
And dreams

Others may
Even loved ones
Bring you down
Dismiss as real
Jokingly laugh
Blasphemy they say
Not attainable

I will not
Let that seep
Into the core
A defense
Stout and strong
Stubbornly heady
I will go on

They see not
The true ambition
Spit at my decision
Curse my sights
Toss the book
In my face
But I stand still

I see the light
The tunnel
Of my desire
My innermost
Core and heart
Soon you shall see
What I believe.

As a dedication
To those who do not believe
What I can achieve
Hard work
Hearty labor
Never give up
And never cease

I believe
And so I shall see
Soon they shall too
Believe
My dreams
My love
And my passion!

One

Even to the best of my ability
I can be quite so silly

In my thoughts and words
Dreaming of the birds

I cannot always correctly assume
What your mind expects me to presume

I am only human
With a decent acumen

I try and try so hard
Sometimes its not in the cards

To know what is
That is your "biz"

I am but a kind soul
Stuck in a rut of a hole

Connections you expect
My inquires you reject

Anguish stirs a dark pot
In the headlights I am caught

Knowing not the way
That you assume me to say

Lend me a helping hand
Fallen I am in quick-sand

Tell me your needs
So I can perform wondrous deeds

Keep it to yourself
In the burdening stealth

Assume the worse
An undeniable undesirable curse

Because I was left in the dark
Stuck in neutral in park

Communication is key
For us to be

So let it out
Open the floodgates spout

The bad, the good and ugly
For future's sake of snugly

Love is a fragile entity
A work in progress perpetually

Built on strong foundation
For a better formation

Times may be rough
But we shall be tough

Chores it may be at times
It shall end in melodic chimes

Nothing comes easy
In an unfair world of sleezy

Especially in the art of love
Its the hardest of all the above

Pain and frustration
Makes love a divine sensation

So two we must
Start to earn our trust

Break the inactive condition
For a better connection

Dust off the dirt
Time to push and exert

Plan and expand
Create a new brand

Alas communication is key
For us to grow to be

One.

The Sun

I know for sure
That you are there
High above
Always fair

Even when
The clouds dismay
Block the view
In dreary gray

I shall not be
Hopelessly dissuaded
I will wait
To be serenaded

With the birds
Your accompaniment
The songs they sing
A virtuous moment

The colors displayed
In pure unison
Brightly shown flowers
A sublime sensation

When you rise
I run and play
Jump freely
In awesome display

When you fall
Asleep in slumber
Too I dream
Of tomorrow's number

What sightly rays
The melodic measures
Will you bring
That I can treasure

Then here you are
Awake I am again
Certainly pleased
Of your choral refrain

Up I go
In delightful mood
You are the best
My spirits renewed.

To my utter disbelief

To my utter disbelief
As if I were in a movie
My life dramatized
I did not this see
The twists and turns
Through the narrows
This shock and awe
Is this a sign
An omen to come
Of events not yet here
Blind-sighted by misfortune
Thorough and concrete
Never before seen
A nightmarish dream
To my utter disbelief