Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Avenues and Alleyways


Avenues and alleyways
Decisions clutter the map
A boulevard of broken dreams
In constant, continual loops and laps

The race for the cure
Has no real ending in sight
Tortured souls grimace sorrowfully
Dreaming of a peaceful light

The weight bears down immense
Like a lead foot on a straightaway
You focus desperately, longingly
For the off-ramp to run away

This one-way road trip
Haunts like a desolate island
Never to be discovered nor found
Perpetually a pain to be mired in

Avenues and alleyways
They all lead to one distinct conclusion
Need to escape from restless reality
Into a realm of whimsical illusion.

Friday, April 25, 2014

These Phantoms Besiege Me


These phantoms besiege me
Chasing my every move and position
Under constant continual surveillance
Like closed circuit television
I try to flee
But even before I inch lurching forward
The walls encompass me into darkness
Shackled stuck in a grind
In a flow oh so very burdensome

With all my might I do try
Energy emphasized for the jail break
Alas these bars don't budge at all
I feel trapped
Ever more so and then some
Is this a figment of my imagination
Or is this situation obtrusively real
It's too hazy with the visibility so low

The ghosts of yesteryear
Haunt my worrisome encumbered mind
This mirror needs to be shattered
I must transform
Oh I think I hear their chatter
The footsteps quicken their pace
Surreal or illusion it doesn't matter
 This dark place will not be where I reside
Here in the desert of ill-reputed despair.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

The Tough Life I Seek



Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where fortune seems bleak
And the sorrow is deeper in me

Why should I do this?
Engage in the terrible straits
The narrow road of crisis
Determined by the Fates

Dredging through the mud
Emboldens my resolve
And boils my cry for blood
Barriers beware of ensuing dissolve

In this dark, harrowing time
My true self discovery occurs
Ripped away from what is sublime
This concoction begins to slowly stir

Fermented in the shaded shadows
A phoenix starts to emerge
The fiery flow beckons and bellows
My power soon converges

What is this you see?
It is the reversal of direction
Lifted up from changing seas
Cleansed of the failure distortion

You see the tough life I seek
Is only but for an mild instant
The lesson learned in meek
Forever rises in changes fervent

The new self that rises
Points a new direction of North
The strength of character surprises
Forward and further comes forth

The time away in somber silence
Stews the mind courageously anew
It grows in strict, incorrigible confidence
Becoming a light, airy, and vibrant hue

The change is nearly complete
My story makes a transition
A new challenge is here to meet
I seek to amplify with distinction

Its the tough life I seek
The pain, torture, and agony
Where misfortune is bleak
And the joy is deeper in me.

Friday, February 14, 2014

You Are My Everything, My All

Through the thick and thin
In the rough, tumbling thicket
Mighty seas have brought their very best
But nothing could break this bond
Standing tall on the mighty rock
Jutting out boastfully against unruly waves
Piercing the fog even on the darkest night

Yet gentle and calm in your embrace
Enveloping my soul with such sweetness
I surrender my all to thee assuredly
You provide the shine that sparks my life
The smile that nestles my weary spirit
Igniting the indescribable feeling
Surely an awesome joy and happiness

Though this day is a reminder for us
It should not be special for today only
Everyday is significant, important
With the simple touch of your caress
You flavor my life with the utmost beauty
Catalyzing the strength of our perpetual bond
Advancing, progressing us forward forever

Oh I am blessed, so very blessed
That I laid those first links of love
Years ago at an event of great responsibility
A seed planted in great friendship and comedy
Those first heart tugs and strings
Kindling the flame ever so tenderly
Becoming burnished in a blaze of enchantment

You empower me into who I am today
Like the North Star on a cold, dark night
Evoking the best in all that I do always
Because it comes from your joyful spirit
Dear friend and my sweet, precious love
You are everything, my all.

--Dedicated to my wife on February 14, 2014





Thursday, February 06, 2014

What counts is the positive sum

You can't ever go back to before
Time changes too rapidly
Before you know, it soon approaches
Tomorrow is here now quickly

You're glad the the worse is gone
But at the same time previously
Gone also was the sense of bliss
Oh how time flies so mischievously

Yearning for joy in the ever present
Disparaging pain somehow seeps through
Present pleasure vanishes abruptly
Replaced with despair tinged in a dark hue

Indeed its a roller coaster journey
What dreams may not come
Journey forward nevertheless
What counts is the positive sum.